I wake up each morning to the chimes of my cell phone alarm, roll over, and hit “cancel” (which always takes 3-4 tries to turn off in my not-yet-functional state). In those few seconds, when my brain is not yet awake, I see news alert after news alert – tweet-sized headlines that appear on my lock screen – causing my first thoughts as a sentient human to become “Damage Report!” Because I’m waking up on the west coast, it is 3 hours later than Washington DC, New York, and let’s be real, Florida, whence much of the news that concerns me these days emanates. It’s amazing how much can already have happened in those 3 little hours. Ten minutes later, still lying in bed staring at a screen, my brain struggling to string words together into reality, I realize I’m well on my way down the rabbit hole and that, if I don’t shut my phone off now, I’ll be late for work.
The tone of the morning is now set as sadness, anxiety, and often anger seeps into my consciousness. As I shower, the morning’s headlines race through my mind. As I make my coffee and down breakfast, I’m pondering the possible ramifications of the latest article or blog topic. On my drive to work, it takes all my self-control not to check headlines at the red lights and stop signs. And then, there I am, in a library full of my fabulous little children and I have to somehow immediately switch my mode of thinking into work mode.
When my insomniac self goes to bed at night, instead of reading a novel (I’ve been ⅓ of the way through Belgravia for weeks now) lately I’ve been back on social media and news sites on my phone. I think it’s good to be informed and know what is going on, even taking part in the online conversation here and there to try to help push forward justice and overcome evil. Still, my poor anxious brain is having trouble winding down so I can actually sleep (something my body already struggles against).
This is not okay. I know most of you have probably already figured this out, but it’s pretty new to me. You see, for years I was a teacher, which meant I got to school in the morning before most people were even awake. There wasn’t much news yet because, well, it was often still dark outside. Then, during the election season of last year, I was staying in a tiny English country town which had little to no internet connection so I had a bit of a buffer. But now, having 3 part time jobs, my day starts later and I have bits of time here and there throughout the day. Into those minutes goes my smart phone, always ready to tantalize me with the most recent shocking thing, always ready to grieve this non-Republican heart disgusted by the greed, hatred, and lies permeating America today. I find myself missing the days before our president could tweet his every thought multiple times a day, missing the times when I used to have to actually turn on my car radio on the drive to work before I knew what was going on. Missing having to wait for the newspaper or news hour after school or work for a recap (yes, I’m older than many of you, and thus didn’t have a cellphone until after my undergrad years at university).
I have to admit that the accessibility of news and the particularly extreme and divided nature of politics and society today is testing my faith. I am often worried. I am often heartsick. I am often devastated. There seems to be no escaping my ability to get news anywhere and anytime!
And then, at the end of this week, I had an epiphany. Again, one many of you have probably already had, but what can I stay, I’m stubborn and cynical and things take me awhile. I realized that my 10 minutes of online news binging here, 15 minutes of Facebook there, and 30 seconds of Twitter there is adding up to drastically more time than I’m spending in both Bible reading and prayer put together.
This brings me back to some of the passages of scripture so common to biblical counselors, ones I should remember and apply more than I have:
“Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me [Paul] – practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.”
“Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers.”
I have not been rejoicing in the Lord as often as I used to, nor delighting in His law. I’ve been withering a bit, to be completely honest. So, how do I find a way to still be aware of what’s going on in the world, still be engaged in the important global and national conversation, still do my best to give voice to the voiceless, help the weak and poor, and champion justice, without becoming overwhelmed by it all?
Here are some of the intentional steps I am taking to change my focus a bit and give Christ and his teachings prevalence:
- Join a global prayer group – Twice a month I meet with a small group of Christian women who pray for the things going on in this world which concern us. Instead of feeling like we are outsiders for being some of the rare non-Republican Christians in our area, we decided to band together and bring our concerns to the Lord. This is not a space for us to rant or discuss political issues at length, but to present our concerns to each other, then pray together, “letting our requests be known to God.” We also drink tea and have snacks. We actually started out meeting once a month, but doubled it when we realized how much these nights were helping us.
- Set an actual alarm clock – I just now took the time to figure out how to set the alarm on the speaker I usually use for my phone. Though it was harder than assembling IKEA furniture, I think it will be helpful for me to no longer wake up to a screen. My goal is to do what all the sleep studies say, to plug my phone in across the room so it’s inaccessible, and not use it before bed or when I wake up. I hope this will allow my mornings to be filled with prayer and worship, as they used to be.
- Put my phone in a different room when I’m reading my Bible – It’s just too easy for my mind to be fragmented the minute an alert pops up when I’m in prayer or in God’s word. I want to be single-minded for once in my life, not multi-tasking while studying and meditating on my Lord’s teachings.
- Reassess all of the alerts on my phone – I do want to know if something serious occurs so I can keep my students safe, pray for what is occurring as it happens, or know to look into something further when I have time. I do not, however, need to read every single tweet by our president as it’s posted. That is a recipe for madness.
- Carve out time and space for meditation on God’s word – This was so much easier at L’Abri, where 3 hours a day are set aside for study. I need to apply this to my daily life, to actually put on my calendar and schedule time. To figure out a space where I can truly be alone for a few minutes with God.
- Pray in my car as I drive to work and drive home – I used to do this as a teacher, pray for the specific classes and lessons I had ahead of me that day, for specific students who were on my heart, for coworkers and the school in general. By the time I got to work, my heart and mind were already engaged with the tasks I had before me, with hope. Praying on the way home instead of listening to the news allows me to lift up any concerns from the day to God, and prepare mentally and spiritually for my next job, or for spending time with family or friends. I need to get to that place again.
These are just a few of the things I am trying or will be trying in order to try to calm my manic mind and spend more time with God and His Word than my news apps or Facebook linked articles. If you have any other ideas that might help me or others like me, please share in the comments!
12 thoughts on “Just Another Manic Morning”
Thank you for this! Cellphone obsession is one of the major problems I struggle with, especially as a stay at home mom whose mind needs occupying throughout the day. The phone and all the content it offers is an easy fix but I find myself wasting a good deal of time that could be better spent and getting sucked into an endless spiral of depression and helplessness over the headlines. The tips you offer are great! I know so many of us are struggling with this.
Let me know if you try any, and what does or does not work!
This is great, Fawn! I feel like I struggle with the opposite problem, in that I can stay ignorant and happily content without knowing what’s going on in the political world. (I obviously still find other things to let consume and take my time instead of placing it in the good things) Anyway, I have tried a new thing lately where I turn off all notifications on everything, and then I listen daily while getting dressed to NPR’s podcast Up First, which is a 12 min daily podcast about what’s happening in the world. I listen while I get ready and get the highlights. Maybe this is a bad idea….:) but this is may way of trying to stay informed without getting sucked in.
That podcast is a great resource!
That was sent to me so I tried it – I turned off all notifications on my phone besides what comes from actual people, it’s been great.
Great video! I just went through and shut off a bunch of my notifications and rearranged my apps. Thanks!
Ah, yes, the cellphone and the NEWS feed… Indeed, I have also felt and done much of what you recounted. I have also been blessed with the perfect interruption- a little boy of three that refuses to let me sit and read anything. So with my limited time I have purposefully decided to read my Bible first… before anything. I give my son his bath, pass him on to his Dad to read with him and say prayers, before I go into my little reading cove in our bedroom to be alone with the Lord. I also have a prayer list… to make sure I am thinking of all those whom I love who may need prayer. Then I read. It may only be ten minutes, but I read. And I do sometimes forget. I do sometimes get interrupted because our son needs something or I have to throw in a last load of laundry or wash a dish…
I am glad that you realized and are doing something about this overwhelming media/news feed that our phones are bombarding us with all the time.
And gee, guess who came to tell me to get off the computer and play with him?
Cheers and prayers, Sis!
Thanks! We’ll see how it goes. I love how thoughtful you’ve been about your time priorities. 😁
My android has a ‘do not disturb’ option that I can schedule. I choose between ‘priority’ calls, ‘alarms only’, and ‘total silence’. I make sure there is total silence during my communing with the Lord time, ect.
I also used to fast from screens one day a week or certain times during the day (like an hour before bed).
I love the idea of getting a real alarm clock!
I use the do not disturb function at night, only allowing priority calls through in case of emergency. It’s nice.
What a great perspective and practical steps for healthy God-honoring change. I love the idea of a global prayer group!! Thank you for this Fawn!!
It’s been a great help and encouragement to pray with this little group of ladies during this season!
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